Stability

What suprises me the most this semester is the fact that I am taking 19 hours (6 classes), but I have never felt so relaxed. Yesterday, I was chatting with on of my best friends about school, and it hit me. I think that I have finally found my niche, a sense of stability in my life. While I may not like working or going to school, I am confident that I will be able to complete ever task set before me efficiently and in a timely manner. It's a nice feeling. Ah responsibility...

Envy

I feel so helpless living out here on my own, like a baby being forced to walk before it even knows how to crawl. It is hard to have to struggle while I watch my people, lazy people, just breeze through life. Things seem to always go there way. Sometimes I wish I had that kind of life. The kind where things just work out for me without any valid explanation except for luck on my side. I am aware that God has a purpose for me, but why can't I just get to that point already? 

The Importance of Life

I thought that I would never start a blog again, but lately I feel the need to express my feelings.

Just last night I unfortunately had to experience something that changed my outlook on life. I now realize how much I am putting myself at risk when all I want to do is go out and have a good time. Enjoying life is important, but falling into dangerous habits and living on the edge is unacceptable. I need to start surrounding myself with people who have the same appreciation for life as I do.

I have also started to reevaluate my decision to live in College Station. I love the small city. It is so different from the hustle and bustle of Houston. However, there are so many things out here that keep swaying me away from the prize: a college degree. So far, I have managed to keep my priorities somewhat straight, but it becomes hard when I watch several of my friends be completely carefree. I know I have to think of my future but is it really that bad to live in the present?

I guess this has a lot to do with all of the stress I have been under lately. There is much to get done and decisions to be made; I feel so overwhelmed by it all.