Sex and Death 101

After work last night, Molly and I decided to have a beer and began to watch a movie on my Netflix called Sex and Death 101. I know they were trying to make a statement, but it really bothered me how people were literally dropping dead in the same fashion that a handful of my friends did last year (i.e. the breaking of the neck). I could barely sleep last night. All I could think about was the chances of that happening again to my loved ones or even me. I don't think I could bare to have any one else that I care about take a permanent leave from life. Death is so final. There is no going back, no second chances or reset button, and that just scares me shitless.

[Kinda off topic...]
This is one of the reasons that I am not religious anymore. I still believe that there is a God, but I do not devote my entire life to the church anymore.. Whether my time on this earth be long and prosperous or short and sweet, I want to be able to experience as much as possible. I feel like involving myself so much in the church when I was younger was good for me, but now I want to be free from guilt when I delve into areas that are more secular. Things that the church would look down upon but are not necessarily wrong. For example, I have a lot of piercings. I like my piercings. I got them for me; they don't hurt anyone. However, if anyone from my old youth group, school, or dad/dad's side of the family found out about where some of these piercings are located, they would immediately condemn me 1) for desecating my body and 2) for being so "liberal."

Back to the movie, like I said before I know that they were trying to make a statement. The antagonist in the movie was killing men that had done wrong to women. They showed how she was being sexually abused by her husband in the bedroom by being forced to role play and hurt during those acts. Then they showed a man talking to a little girl on the bench of a sidewalk, insinuating that he was a child molestor. I try not to let something like that bother me, but it does. The sight of seeing a child being lured in makes me incredibly sick. I try really to blow it off because it's not like the movie was real. On the same token, that does really happen all of the time. Any kind of sexual abuse is horrible, and I strongly believe any person responsible for that kind of disrespect does not deserve to live.

Done. I feel better now.